Man oh man...

So on top of being out West I am also trying to make stuff happen back East. I am trying to get a job that I consider ideal and although I have made the fool hearty claim that I am no role model I truly wish to be one. I want this job so bad but I might be doomed before I get it. I know that I have made my fair share of mistakes but very few if any have yet to be repeated. I think that this job would help me be better at being me. Also, this boy is scaring the hell out of me. I have only known this person for a very short amount of time and now he refuses to date other people. Needless to say this sort of monogamous effrontery is shocking and makes me want just drop this situation like a flat soccer ball. I am still a little shaken up from my last endeavor and cannot proceed this quickly and I fear that if any further "thou art for me" statements are made I will surly run like the emotional bandit that I sometimes am. Also, I got the new Harry Potter book and I feel like such a dork carrying it around.