And YOU Are?

To some the world has been held hostage by tyrants and terrorists but all the while the rooster still crows and the cows still produce milk. It might not be 100% organic but the cow more than likely does not give a shit. The wind still blows and although it is filled with second hand smoke, gas fumes, and particulates; the trees do not care. The ocean still rises and falls even though there are dead bodies, pollutants, and poisons floating around. My point being, fear and hate are enough to scare some people into a mouse-like state of being and sometimes those things are enough to drive people, even people you love, to do some terrible things but those actions are not the only happenings in the universe. In fact, I have an excellent personal example of just such an occurrence. I know someone I really love but they are so stricken with jealousy (due to their fear of being insignificant) that they go out of their way to attain every material thing I have ever wanted. Now I will not try to fool you… I like material things and shiny new stuff but I am not obsessed with it, like I used to be and at one time this made me really upset. I thought, how could someone that is supposed to love me be so callous and so selfish??? But now I understand. I have all the things that they will never have and cannot buy. I am young and sometimes down right attractive. I have a good sense of humor and I am, to say the least, fucking intelligent and not just in a book smart way either. I am motivated and have a strong sense of self. I am Isarna. Well, you get the point. The fact is, just because this loved one ran out and bought everything they can barely afford because I desired it, does not make them successful or better than me, it just makes them petty and it is sad. This loved one also has grandiose ideas that their offspring is going to become something more than just a landscaper because they want so desperately to believe that they will be apart of something big but they are just setting themselves up for failure and it is ashame because you just want to grab them by the head and say, “you’re the only person who can make YOU happy.” Sometimes we may question why are people so fucked up, why they are so selfish, and what makes them act the way they do but all ridiculous actions come from the same place, fear. Perhaps, it is nature deficiency or simply the inability of certain types of people to step back and see what is really going on around them. It is going to rain… I should find my umbrella.