New Blog

So since rope climbing season I have become inspired to write about rope climbing.  This new blog can be found at http://trprincess.blogspot.com and it is the best blog about top roping I have ever read.  Oh. Did I mention that I'm writing it?  Check it out.  It does not have the relationship drama that this blog has.

Ovulation and Other Struggles

If you guys can recall I mentioned something about a new younger man last time I wrote.  Little did I know that I was ovulating at the time and since I have been on birth control for the past decade I had no idea what it was really like to ovulate.  Now I know.  It is fucking intense and it also clouds any sort of judgement I might have had.  I asked that guy out while I was ovulating and then by the time our date rolled around I was no longer ovulating so luckily I had some friends that wanted to tag along on our "date".  Horrible thing, ovulation.  Really puts a damper on things and makes it much more difficult to rebound.  I might as well throw in the towel and just say that I'm not going to sleep with anyone until I know that I want to be with them.  I know myself too well and I know that I have issues with jealously, trust, and relationships in general so I'm just going to play it safe.  Nothing sucks more than to sleep with someone and then see them with someone else even if you did not give a shit about them.  OK there are a couple of things that suck more than to have your ego trampled but it is high up on my personal list of things that suck.
On another note, I competed in a college climbing comp and that was just a blast.  I climbed like total shit but I actually had a good time.  I placed in 3rd but it was a small coup on my part because I did not let my green eyed monster get the best of me.  I realized that the only reason why I was upset about losing to this other girl before was that I was craving attention and I wanted the attention she was getting because of her awesome climbing ability.  The fact of the matter is, and this is going to sound "hella" egotistical, I don't need to climb well to get attention and I actually get more attention and support by just being honest.  Also, I'm climbing great compared to a year ago so I'm do the best that I can do and mad rock jocks love me for it.
Finally, it has been almost three months since my ex and I broke up and besides this overwhelming sense of loneliness, sexual frustration, and crying fits after a good day of climbing, all is going alright.