Advice

I have learned something very important in the past few months.  If you cannot get what you want from someone.  Find someone else.

New Blog

So since rope climbing season I have become inspired to write about rope climbing.  This new blog can be found at http://trprincess.blogspot.com and it is the best blog about top roping I have ever read.  Oh. Did I mention that I'm writing it?  Check it out.  It does not have the relationship drama that this blog has.

Ovulation and Other Struggles

If you guys can recall I mentioned something about a new younger man last time I wrote.  Little did I know that I was ovulating at the time and since I have been on birth control for the past decade I had no idea what it was really like to ovulate.  Now I know.  It is fucking intense and it also clouds any sort of judgement I might have had.  I asked that guy out while I was ovulating and then by the time our date rolled around I was no longer ovulating so luckily I had some friends that wanted to tag along on our "date".  Horrible thing, ovulation.  Really puts a damper on things and makes it much more difficult to rebound.  I might as well throw in the towel and just say that I'm not going to sleep with anyone until I know that I want to be with them.  I know myself too well and I know that I have issues with jealously, trust, and relationships in general so I'm just going to play it safe.  Nothing sucks more than to sleep with someone and then see them with someone else even if you did not give a shit about them.  OK there are a couple of things that suck more than to have your ego trampled but it is high up on my personal list of things that suck.
On another note, I competed in a college climbing comp and that was just a blast.  I climbed like total shit but I actually had a good time.  I placed in 3rd but it was a small coup on my part because I did not let my green eyed monster get the best of me.  I realized that the only reason why I was upset about losing to this other girl before was that I was craving attention and I wanted the attention she was getting because of her awesome climbing ability.  The fact of the matter is, and this is going to sound "hella" egotistical, I don't need to climb well to get attention and I actually get more attention and support by just being honest.  Also, I'm climbing great compared to a year ago so I'm do the best that I can do and mad rock jocks love me for it.
Finally, it has been almost three months since my ex and I broke up and besides this overwhelming sense of loneliness, sexual frustration, and crying fits after a good day of climbing, all is going alright.  

A Team for the Non-Sport

Well.  Looks like I'm well on my way to accomplishing something great.  Now for all this horrible paper work.  Thank goodness for the motivated individuals that are helping to make this happen.  I am blessed with the good and the bad.  I am also blessed with an extended stay at the Red River during the summer which is, yet again, good and bad.

Like I Give a Shit.

I am so grateful that at the very least I know who my good friends are and although most of  them don't like spending time hanging from finger fucking holds does not mean that they are not wonderful people with passions and past times of their very own.  I find that this point in my life has been a godsend when figuring out who is there for me and who is not.  For example, I knew that none of my ex's friends liked me but since we share this small world of climbing, I know that I will have to put up with them in one fashion or another.  You see, my real friends called, emailed, text messaged, facebooked and stopped by to see how I was doing when my ex and I split.  BUT did any of my "friends" from my former relationship even bother?  No. 

 I climbed with someone for two days at Rocktown and they even asked me how I was doing but these fake ass bitches from Brevard, NC that I had known for well over a year did not even bother to say something over Facebook.  The funny thing about it is that if I run into them, which unfortunately is likely, they are going to put on such an act that even Grace Kelly would believe it.  Too bad I have an refined my ability to detect white trash.  Finally, the time has come for the best sort of revenge, a life well lived.  

The Hunt

Oh what an attractive specimen that has been trust upon my plate.  This young, unaware, and juicy prey.  I know, I know.  I should not pursue something that does not make a full meal but what is wrong with a little snack?  I think this could be one my best ideas as of yet and I have had some signs from the heavens that have informed me that this young man is just the thing I have been looking for since my break up.  I have been reading this forum and one of the recent topics was "Getting Over Someone is as Easy as Getting Under Someone" and although I have attempted to transcend such courses of action I do believe that this time it is absolutely necessary.  

I am sad to inform you all but as it turns out, recent findings have been uncovered and have led me to the conclusion that my ex boyfriend of a year and a half was pining over someone else during the duration of our relationship.  Not only was he pining after someone else but as it turns out this person actually rejected him.  

Typical.  

All that bullshit about being insecure, constantly being suspicious that I was going to cheat on him, and all the other bullshit was just him and his fucked up little mind the WHOLE TIME.  Basically, he was projecting his own intent and his own fucked up attitude on not only me but our whole relationship.  Therefore, I am absolved of all guilt and I personally take great satisfaction in hearing about his bad luck.  Poor little bitch. 

 

Back to the pre-course at hand... This is going to be too much fun. OX

The Sieve

Good news.  Finally.  I will be meeting with the sports council on Wednesday along with the future VP and Treasurer of the Climbing Team!  I am looking forward to finally becoming official and getting these folks some gym time.  It is really tough to see students that love climbing but cannot afford to go to the climbing gym.  I hope that the team will be able to provide that for its members along with some awesome service work with the CCC and other organizations.  If this goes according to plan then the Climbing Team will be one of my greatest achievements and will provide a significant benefit to every member.  Needless to say, I have my fingers crossed.      
Also, I have found a great way of managing my blooming social life, school and training and it is called saying NO.  Yep.  One simple word has done wonders for me and surprisingly enough it is also my ticket to getting laid by one of the sexiest and smartest bitches I have met thus far.  Although, I am still open to other options I do believe this man might be the band-aid to my broken heart.  I am so grateful.