Torture

SHIT. Now I have experienced that feeling before, you know the one, where your stomach just seems to knot up and then it feels like all the blood rushes from your head and your swearing to yourself that if you can just keep a straight face they will have no idea how much power they have over you. Damn it. And then you feel that sly smile creeping up on your face and your like SHIT, straight face.... straight face! But your heart is still pumping a million miles per minute and your wondering if they can hear it. SHIT. Can they? I have felt this way Several times, but then the stupid bastard will ruin it and then you want to just backhand them but you say something pretty rude instead. Hell, we all know actions speak louder than words. Even worse than this feeling though, is being around someone you dare not touch because you know what your intentions are and they are petty, shallow, and vulgar. BUT you still want too. You can smell them when they are standing next to you and you just want to roll around in it like a dog. Then grab em and well... you get the picture. I simply cannot bring myself to do it because I am not in the right place and once again the intent is just all wrong. It would be like 1st degree murder as opposed to manslaughter. SHIT.