An Explanation of previous metaphor

Basically, I have nothing that makes me worthy of this empire. I am a failure in every regard even in the eyes of my ideological mind. I have done nothing and for that I am nothing. My sick dance of ability is nothing more than a charade that makes the shallow part of me smile because that is all there is left. My deep dived into it and broke its neck. oh yeah... I'm not talking about suicide dumb ass. I'm talking about failure.