At Least...

I once said that at the very least I have my freedom. But only the truth can really set you free. At one time I tricked myself in to believing that I was of such a high caliber that I needed nothing or no one but that was really not the case. Masking ones ability to express emotions is not a strength. The realization of this makes it impossible for me not to face the fact that I really am just a stupid kid. Charlie told me in a letter that hiding a person's emotional nature is not an act of deceiving others but an act of self deception. I have fought many internal struggles throughout the years and having lost many of them to my ego I have come to a point where I can say that in the internal battlefield is where I have inflicted the greatest casualties. My lost friends and lovers gone.