I'm Bold as Love

Unsure of how to progress from here. I often wonder if Charlie would approve of my current circumstance. Would he pat me on the back? Would he question my motives? I would like nothing more than a quick and easy fix but my ego is quite the monster. Never resting, never questioning; it is always right in its own way and everyone else can go to hell. What a dangerous creature. I'm sure some people would feel the way I do right now. If someone said they did not want to be with you and they were leaving ("Have a nice life"), well I could easily imagine that a few individuals would feel slighted. But if they didn't go, how would most people feel? Lucky? Relieved? I suppose some would say yes but those with the plague of ego would feel the way I do; hurt, skeptical, and restless. I would like to pretend it never happened.