The Water Table needs it but NOT me

Shit. My trip to the Red has been rained out...perhaps it should have stayed a desert;). Anyway, looking at my stats for the bouldering season, I have only climbed 57 problems at Rumbling Bald. Bullshit. I wanted to complete 100 by the end of the season but due to injuries, Bald closures, and the occasional lack of motivation I am nowhere near completing my task. Now it is practically rope season and I am terrified. I have been training in the gym about twice a week (I got 28 problems down and then do "get-ups" with the 60 lbs bag) and I have been working on the indirect to the Glass Menagerie to get my head right but I am still flipping the fuck out below the long sling under the roof. (The climbing feels like 5.8) It has been suggested that I read the Rock Warriors Way but I have the feeling I should try to get to the Red River ASAP and take some serious (non-slab) whippers. I have not led a climb in over a year and a half, being on top rope scares the shit out of me (especially with these zig-zagging North Carolina slab lines) and basically I am in a pathetic state of climbing. I don't understand where this fear comes from, whenever I am in the boulder field I am more than willing to hit up the low V grade highballs that most would walk away from but as soon as I tie in I am suddenly a different climber. Perhaps it is my back injury but I truly believe it is simply irrational fear. I suppose I need a compelling project and I think I have some idea what it might be...